(Essay critique)
Kh. Choidogjamts
“That wasn’t the
light,
But arrived to witness the light”[2]
“Ah balam holcan,
Kikel u chi
kikel yichac,
“...Like the first
Aureliano Buendia destroyed the panthers in the area, Hose ArkadioBuendiga’s
fearfully strong, dangerous and sharply launched spear staked his throat...”[4]
“...Chinggis Khaan was admirably inspired by defeating the Tanguds as he wanted and his spirit was bowed like the panther going to jump to his prey. Vehement desire to defeat and to conquer was flaming like a fire in his spirit...”[5] Tsinakan woken up by his dreams. But he started another dream. How many years have passed since he was imprisoned in the stone dungeon together with a leopard, and if the leopard is still on the other side of the wall, he could no longer figure out but just sank in the dream world without the time and space measures. He thought, “No dream which comes from a dream”, however, he couldn’t wake up but dreaming and groping...Interestingly, he sees one incident in his dream, when he wakes up in his dream he continues dreaming another incident. Every new dream is connected with the previous ones with invisible joins like a sand.
“...Temuujin’s yellow eyes were full of enmity and
revenge, he took out his sword and was unhurriedly coming round...Say again, Khan-Tumur got panic when Temujin said
suddenly. He never noticed that Temuujin has such bright
yellow eyes...And Temuujin’s horrible
look almost blinded his eyes, inevitably, he looked away...He even couldn’t move when a stranger quickly
approached him. The bright yellow eyes
said it was Temuujin...”[6]. Every
time he wakes up he knows that such endless dreams come from the co-jailed
leopard and hypnosis of its yellow eyes and bottomless spots, but he can’t
follow his thoughts as Tsinakan is seized by his dreams again. “...The leopard unhurriedly
lifted its head with weirdly bright eyes and stared at the rock with a few
trees on it...As for the hungry
leopards, who showed mercy to the old mountain goats, this slaughter was
dreadfully fierce...Of course, were afraid. But it was not such fearful, but rather hateful
case. Because the leopards are foresighted animals such...”[7].
In fact, this foresighted dream irrevocably
persuaded Tsinakan that there are words which told the human about all the
ideal “nature” and matter of the universe, and it is
difficult to say or describe how his imagination was excited. Just imagine that the “co-prisoner” was that hem for
a tiny man, who was looking for the god’s eternal word from a stone dungeon...Therefore, “I thought as the last slave of the god it might be
my fate destiny to decode this writing”. From now on as a
light came into the dark hole, I started investigating the spots on the leopard
skin, netted in the wall, soon, my thoughts and imagination turned into absurd
dreams surprisingly for myself.
By dreaming from the dreams for many years (but not
sure) Tsinakan observed that although the continuation of a new dream was
different, they all showed the same sign at the end. The dream might be too complicated and external,
however, if I dream myself as the main character, it will be the signal for the
start of next new dream. Same was with the end
of this dream. “...I was heartily drawing
a portrait of Chinggis Khaan with a magic mirror in his chest and with the
image of a horse in the mirror. I was drawing
only with only a black pencil but the eyes were green.
The people, who saw my painting, said the person was squint-eyed. But a doctor said he is not squint-eyed man but it
is the picture of thought. When a man is
absorbedwith thinking, the eyesight is different, he said. The picture was scrabbled R.Choinom, however, it was
legible...”[10]
He had no idea what events and what kind of people
were coming into his dreams, but he felt that one same thing was shown like a
prediction of something and he was jailed in the dungeon in his dreams. Later, he was dreaming the leopards continuously,
but it was rather confusing than interesting.
While Tsinakan was musing that the simple human, who was searching the eternal
writing, has been turning into the “dream about leopards”, his new dream
started. Suddenly, it was a dream without leopards. “...The mass started
revolts for being in the vanguard of the social life and for deserving the
scientific and technical progresses. This is how the
crowds happen. It isn’t easy to make
public something that is devoted for minority. Here, we can see a new phenomena
of how the public enters the minority place without losing its public nature
and displacing them ...”[11] He had no time to think about the “new words” as
the mass, crowd, new phenomena, when the next dream started. “...The meager nobly ceased his many years of fist among
this mass revolt, however, still felt anxiety... In fact, not this faithfully fisting meager but the
universe was denying his achievement and cheating him... Soon, a young
leopard was put into the meager cage. Everyone, who
saw the majestic wild predator’s jumping in the cage, which was calm for a long
time, got furious and thrilled... Curious mass
crowd in front of the cage and stare the leopard with admiring eyes”[12]. Many people in front of the cage neglect the meager
but stare the leopard, this kind of “odd” dream seemed like him, who was trying
to find the natural laws of the spots of the leopard through the netted window
of the stone dungeon, and this thought made him to feel doubtful about the
special script of the god. He strongly
believed that the “blankly” dreams were burying him as he was searching for the
common nature of others and that these dreams appeared to wake him up from
abstract feelings. The next dream arrived
to make him understand that recognizing own dreams is the only way to survive
from this hypnosis and wake up earnestly. “...Look at these
overflowing people! They are always sick,
vomit with envy and say it is strange. They swallow
each other but never absorb themselves...”[13]
He recognized that if continue this way for some
more time he will be stooped by the alien dreams and “die before waking up
earnestly” and that the singularity about the writing will swallow Tsinakan in
his dreams like the grains of sand. Now he begs for only one thing: to dream that he is
waking up back to his reality and to his only cognitive in this stone dungeon
and wake up earnestly. So, “...I wish this fish sleeps, so I can sleep, too. I want
to see a lion in my dreams. Why the nicest
memories in my life are those lions?.. The old man
dreams about lions”[14] and
only after these dreams I puzzled out the god writing and the leopard,
instantly made asleep the great desire about the heaven writing, compared with
the nature and the strongest aspiration to wake up back to my irremovable
existing defeated the abstract imagination, so that Tsinakan called the last dream
himself.
Watching the “Environment”, a
program about animal world. They are describing the leopards, their species and
life conditions. In particular, when the
researcher was describing the mountain leopards, very few in Mongolia, he said
that a leopard never roars and has no vocal cord”[15]. Leopard never
roars, leopard never roars, leopard never roars, by shouting so Tsinakan could
wake up finally in the stone prison, which seemed so close and nice. Quickly, he remembered hundreds of un-roaring
leopards, absurd spots, and various confusing dreams and thought, I must roar,
I saw my own dream, and his thought “echoed” in the stone dungeon. I
could find the god’s eternal holy writing as the formula of life, consisting of
8 syllabus and 22 words.
“Oh
my, the cheer of cognition is much higher the cheer of imagination”. Tsinakan found the holy motivation of the universe
in his thinking but not through someone’s imagination or feeling. The god’s writing is not dependent to him but I,
Tsinakan, the real god’s writing myself,
wake up with such thoughts...Tsinakan “saw an infinite high Wheel and it wasn’t behind him,
nor in front of him, nor next to him but everywhere. The Wheel was made with fire and the water, the
spoke was visible but with no ends”. The wheel was
promoting endlessly to the four directions and four intermediate points like
the cart wheels, and from this wheel Tsinakan heard his own voice like the
sutra: The
words “...Both the spirit and the body will derive at the
right time after conjuncture, therefore, the body has no own nature. The body emerged during conjuncture, hence, it is
not eternal. If the body had own
nature, it would turn into everything it wanted...Likewise, the spirit has no own nature. The spirit will derive at the right time after
conjuncture, therefore, it is changeable...”[16]. Real wake up is the nicest “dream” for Tsinakan and
if it was the god’s scriptures and what was its implication, now, it has turned
to an uninteresting cognition. But the god’s
writing Tsinakan has clearly recognized that the leopard on the other side of
the wall was the Chilam balam[17] and this was peerless happiness and pathos.
May 09, 2017
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[9]Originated from the book “Maya’s
foresight 2012” by Dmitry Zima and Nadejda Zima.(Transl. N.Purevdagba and S.Tuya)
[10]R.Chuluunbazar’s memories about
the portrait of Chinggis Khaan, painted by the famous writer and poet R.Choinom
[15]“Environment” animal world program. Originated from the itinerary –
scientific and cognitive program
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